Words of Ven. Robina Courtin
Being your own therapist, knowing your own mind,
having the confident view that ”yes, there is anger, depression,
low self-esteem and yes, it paralyzes me, but that’s not who I am,
it doesn’t define me as a being and I can change it.”
This gives you the courage to want to look inside
and to start meditating on your mind.
One of the first signs of success in developping
the introspective techniques is you think you’re getting worse,
but it’s like when you start going to the gym.
It’s because we never looked into our mind, in the actual process
of feelings and emotions. And when you start doing it,
it can be scary, because everything in us wants either to live in denial of it,
to feel guilty about it (which is neurotic), or to blame someone else.
We have so many clichees in our culture –
as soon as we hear the word”meditation” we get all mystical and strange,
when in fact it’s all about rigorous, disciplined, sophisticated
psychological techniques that enable you to know your own mind.
We hear the word ”spiritual” and we think about
spirit, soul, religion. But that’s no the buddhist approach.
It’s about the mind,which includes all aspects: intelectual,
emotional,unconscious, subconscious, intuition, feelings.
The body and speech are just the servants of thoughts and emotions
– of the mind. The very first level of practice is to control your body
and speech: zip the lip and keep your hands to yourself.
Then you’ll start looking into your mind, where you’ll find
3 types of states:positive, negative and neutral.
The beginning is to identify the negative ones, the ones who create
our suffering (anger, fear, depression, anxiety, jealousy, low self-esteem etc.)
Recognize them as source of our suffering
and cultivate some compassion for yourself.
Even when the sources are external, we have the power to change the reaction.
And this is liberation.
Definition of delusion: A mental factor that arises
from inappropriate attention and functions to make the mind
unpeaceful and uncontrolled. There are three main delusions:
ignorance, desirous attachment and anger.
From these arise all the other delusions.